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Miss Attention

Hey little “Miss Attention” I know that anxiety and depression are your two bestfriends, that sometimes they give you all the wrong advice and that when it gets to be too much you feel like cutting every inch of your body with a knife as if it was a piece of cake, when you see the blood your mind leaves somewhere else and just thinks of the bloody hand and nothing else, that seems to make it a little better doesn’t it? Miss Attention many look at you weird as if you were crazy, many look at you as if you were a person whom cannot control herself, and when you think they are thinking of you and there really not your make yourself believe it and than it becomes a reality, do you not see that you are doing this to yourself, I mean surely not yourself because your two bestfriends that will never leave your side have helped you well, in a way to go to your end and only see your dark side, I was for you to know that if  you let go of those two friends that have hold you back, freedom within will be felt, and you will rise no one will be able to say a word to pull you down’

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Die Happy

Millions in the world, some wish to die when they are sad or mad, I on the other hand am that person to wish otherwise to die when I am happy when I have everything that I wanted and I am smiling all throughout the day, no I am not wishing death upon myself I am just saying that we anyone of us could die any day, that I would rather die in a day that I am happy and have accomplish many things in the world that i am happy with, maybe I had much more to live and this and that but lets not get ahead of ourselves we do not know what will happen today or tomorrow, all we do know for sure is that fact that we all die, the moment when we are weak and hurt are the moment that make us strong, stronger than the ocean itself, the sun, the moon, and even the ones that may seem stronger than us, truth is that they are also holding on to their strength, have you ever seen a person that starts of with a problem and instead of fixing that little problem which may seem big at the time, instead makes it into a bigger problem and then all of the sudden that person is in way more problems than what they can handle, yes and then that is the moment when a person decides what am I living for, what have I done, why am I still here, that’s when all the death question come into place, we all in order to make it in this world have to learn that when there is a problem not to make it a bigger one and that life does not have to end when you are weak, it’s better when you are happy and know that you have done the most you can to be at that state of mind’

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Millions

I have thought millions of you, yet you are deeper than an ocean the way you are, the way you feel and the way you speak is as if you were waiting to just die and live at the same time, as if you would like to give up and never quit, because you say will never quit does not actually mean you’ll never quit, and when you smile does not actually mean your happy, and when you listen does not actually mean your listening, I can not read you as well maybe I’m not even really trying, I wish not get more involved with my thoughts about you but I can’t help but to think of everything you say or do, always thinking billions of humans in the world and I have to be right next to you, without you having one ounce of clue that I am loving you even more day by day, hour by hour, second by second’

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Clock

Tick-tock goes the clock, I tell it to walk, doesn’t seem to listen to me, although I forgive it I mean can you blame it? Ya sometimes I feel like throwing it to the wall but can you blame me? I have to look at everyday, every hour, every minute believe me I am patient and this clock keeps ignoring me when I tell it to walk faster, I believe some humans call it “time?” Okay, I guess I know it was called time but could it change in some way I mean we are living everyday and we would think that we are in control of our lives but no we are just slaves and some of us humans are okay with that, I think I have no other thing to do about it rather than to be okay with it, if I sit down I am looking at it, I can almost hear it sometimes, I am telling you it is my bestfriend and my enemy at the same time, we should all feel great to have because if we can still hear it and look at it that means that we have time, and that is a beautiful thing’

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Wait is Over

The wait is over and that nail biting, hair pulling, hours getting ready have ended, that is the moment you decide that the wait is over, the moment you realize you have no chance and you’ll let it go, yeah you are completely right it will be hard to get over the one you been waiting for but now you can move on, you will stand up straight and tall as a cop pulling you over for drinking and driving, speak as if you have nothing to worry and with no sound of sadness from any word, for those words will decide the thin line between let them know if you are okay rather than uncovering your secret that you are indeed stay inlove, that you are falling apart and that if you had to wait longer you would, yet that would be more painful correct but then you think what if this waiting timeline has a different result? I rather say it won’t not a different result because you’ll be mad if all that wait was for no reason, than being to wonder if love is indeed real or just another fictional story that everyone wants to believe, as fairy godmothers and unicorns and explanation to unicorns would be they’re just like ponies when knowing well that there is no unicorns, even if love is something that seems to be real or close to it should we believe that it is real? Most people would say yes believe in it, I understand why they might say that well if you don’t believe in love you will live life wondering if it is real, doesn’t that mean that a part of you still believes in the fact that there is love out there and upsets you when you know that something that you don’t have?’

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Speed Up Time

We have no power to speed up time but if we could lord how much would we, I on the other hand like to think of myself as able to do so to speed up time, the least amount of time I spend thinking about anything really makes time go way faster, so I stop every thought for so time can speed up and I can see you one more because you are not here yet and I’ll have to wait and wait, yet I’ll be patient because we don’t have the power to control time and though I like to think as myself to be able I am as helpless as anyone else, I on the other hand have to be able to control my emotions when it comes I can’t be careless, for you are married and inlove and I will not change that or so one side of me thinks the other side thinks that I should, but I am not in the Click move I do not have a remote to control time oh how I wish I could, imagine that if I made a mistake I could go back and fix it or say forget it and just speed up time, and lord knows I want you with me, why couldn’t I meet you at the right time? But when is it the right time? And why if there is no right time? Will I just be wasting time? Well you are happy are so you say so but I don’t want to believe that because I want a chance at least a bit of possibility, speed up time so I can see you.’ 

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Your Eyes

I think I was lost the moment I looked into your eyes, I smile as a dummy a child when staring right at a toy, cupcake, ice cream, the thought of wanting you more each day make me weak and I think some part of you has notice I might decide to let you know someday and ya it might freak you out and you might change the way you act towards me but I rather somewhat let it you know like I would be so much at peace or would I? The fact to be rejected is killing that will be the moment I lose all of the oxygen left in me, my pride would melt and I would feel odd once again in my life, yes I want you every bit of you I fell for your eyes oh lord those colored eyes if you ask me to do anything for you how could I decline that when you smile and tell me to do may things for you and the world disappears, how can I stay away if every time I look at you I fall inlove maybe I should forget it let you be happy with whoever you wish but it will hurt, I will die deep inside I will forget how to smile for a very long time I want to touch you as if I was the one allowed to do so, if I was asked if I felt this way forever ago I would have said yes either way because when I first saw you my heart stopped for light years so it felt like.’

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