Since I was a fetus the belly I most have known that I was going to be attach to you forever. I don’t remember well see I was just a fetus, no one even had an idea of if I was going to be a male or female, be since that second you found out you loved me. I have been growing and growing through out the years and you have been there in all my birthdays, all the aches, all the I love you, all the I hate you. All the rude things that I may have said, all the beautiful things that I have said, through out the years I have thought about getting my own place, kids, college, friends, lovers, live but I have never put a lot of thought to Death, the thought of losing someone a love one and mostly in ever losing you. Mother I will not bare to lose you I can’t and I won’t, I have been a part of you since the first day. The thought that I rather not ever bring it up is because I don’t want to believe that it’s a part of life, why will we have to deal with it eventually? I do not want to get to the point of go in my friends mothers’ funeral and being scared to death of when your time is up. As long as you are in this earth with us I will not have that thought brought up, and will not let a frown be will you, only always happiness. I will for always be your baby, your little one and all your little ones will love you.
Sitting and staring at walls, at a screen, at a empty room, or just a plain look. Now sometimes I like they way it feels and I think sometimes it’s for the better some staring can just let you think or not think whatever you feel like doing. Time, a best and worst thing you could have you could have a million things to do and no time for it. Every time you have great things going on take a look around and stare and see all the good things. And when thinking gets to the point of what am I doing? Where is my life going for this point on you just remember everything happens for a reason what are the reasons oh who knows! Since we always try to make everything have a purpose we use that I say just go with it I mean why not? Go through this boring live doing boring this why not? Or maybe just have fun sometimes? Blame me if I watch the movie instead of the book. Those who read the book or watch the movie, the ice cube or ice crushed, the clear cups or dark cups. I mean sometimes I don’t even know which one I am but who really thinks about it. Also the love of writing I have but when you don’t really do anything with all that does it mean something at. Same thing with everything else in people’s life some thing means a lot, and some mean just enough. Then we have when light means to see but the blind would beg a differ, or when we say ocean waves make the best sounds but the hearing would beg a differ.